Medication has made me bitter

I was diagnosed as an adult and have been on medication for two years. I don’t know how to explain it but taking medication for the first time just made me so bitter. It was suddenly so much easier to do things and my brain wasn’t yelling at me. All my life I struggled to do things I didn’t care about and my teachers told me I wasn’t cut out for the work force. They treated it as a personal failing. Turns out my brain chemistry just wasn’t wired like that, no matter how hard I tried. It made me bitter to think that this whole time I was living on hard mode while everyone around me was on easy mode but we were held to the same standard.

And this morning I am barely functioning after two hours of sleep because that insomnia side effect never went away and I’m bitter that others naturally get the perks of medication but none of the side effects.

I don’t wish I didn’t have ADHD, I like most of the traits it’s given me. I just wish I’d been medicated sooner. Anyone else relate?