How do you cope with having to take medication every day?

Hello everyone, I hope you’re doing well. I know my question might seem strange, but I really need your advice.

I’m bipolar type 2, and I take several medications: Abilify, Xanax, and Lamictal (in multiple doses throughout the day). I know it might not seem like a lot for some people, but to me, it feels like too much.

I have a pill organizer, and every time I take a pill, I can’t stop thinking: “This is my life now. I’ll have this image every day, and I’ll never be able to get rid of this pill organizer and live a normal life.”

I’m tired of carrying my meds around and having my loved ones see me take them every day. I feel like they pity me every time they see it. Even my boyfriend—although I think I might be overthinking it—I feel like he pities me too.

Sometimes, I feel like stopping everything and just throwing it all down the toilet…

I don’t know what to do. What would you advise me to do?

Thank you for reading. Have a great day/evening 🫶🏻

EDIT : thank you for all your help and support ! I’m trying to answer all of your comments ASAP