Any adults still living with their abusers?

I feel stupid and ashamed. I live with my parents still and I’m 25, my mom is the main one. At this point it’s her goal in life to make me miserable I guess. I’m not in a position to move out yet I need another year or so. However somehow everyday it just gets worse. I have no other family or friends to even talk to about this. I have no insurance so I can’t get help. I feel like I’m deteriorating like how is it possible I’m still letting her do all this shit to me still. It hits me everyday when I wake up like a train because I’m still here.