No benefit from CoDA

Greetings. I just wanted to ask if anyone here has or attended 12 step CoDA meetings for an extended period of time and made a sincere effort to work the program and still do not benefit from it. I have been in the programs for a couple years and attend meetings, work the steps, have been to other 12 step programs. In addition I take medication and go to a therapist but and the codependency and the need sessile thoughts and hurt from people does not alleviate at all. And on top there are members of CoDA that I feel treat me unfairly. Are there any suggestions. Plus I have very severe depression and cannot succeed with making healthy or helpful connection with people in the real world. I have really tried hard Inam thinking about just leaving humanity altogether. I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts for the past 23 years

Years ago CoDA helped me to vent more than any other 12 step program including EA and Al-Anon. I am not an addict and don’t even consume caffeine, alcohol, or tobacco or any stimulant. Thanks