Anyone else feel kind of bitter that the only “winning” in this situation is moving on and living a happy life without them?

I’m sure I’ll feel differently when I get there but this is something I struggle with. There is never going to be a solution. There’s never going to be a day where my ex didn’t abuse me. There won’t ever be a day where I can truly reconcile with him (not even sure why I’d want to).

The only win or success here is by cutting him out entirely, finding someone else, and moving on. Why do I feel like that’s a rip off? Why’s it make me sad?