Through your eyes

Everyone who gets the privilege to have their eyes met by yours don't see the true beauty. At least not in the same way that I do. To others, they're big, beautiful and happy. I see much more than that; my whole entity indulged through them. As if I'm granted VIP access. When truly, it stems from the deep connection shared. How beautiful, to sense the vibrations emitted without even being in the same building.

Happiness, others just see a women who's smiley and bouncy. As for me, I see much deeper. The little girl; bouncing with excitement. So overwhelmed that at times you'd wish you could scream. How hard you try to contain it all. Only because the little girl within has once ever experienced sadness. Neglected the childhood everyone deserves; happiness was just a fairly tale.

Sadness, the emotion that is most forced down. Trying to hide it behind the masked smile. Unfortunately, that only works on others. Actually, I'm fortunate enough to see beyond the surface. The air becomes cold as the sound of your notes vibrations change. The little girl in you, trapped all alone. The mirror is all that's seen; reflected back the lost, scared and sadness that was felt.

Remember you're no longer alone. Everytime the mirror stares back at you, I'll be right behind you. I'll hold you until you feel the warmth. I'll hold you until the mirror is no longer. One day, I hope to replace that mirror. Instead of seeing a sad little girl, you'll see me. Ready to hold you, with a hand reaching out.

You're no longer alone; you'll never be alone again. You might not feel it for Weeks, months or even years. Regardless, i'll ever give up trying. As when I feel your sadness, my heart cries. Yet, When I feel your happiness..... I cannot find words to explain the joy it brings. I feel complete, because I see now, all I've been missing.

All i've been missing is you. The piece that completes me. My home, the safe house I've never had. The only place I've ever felt comfortable enough to pour ever struggle, weakness, insecurities. All the trauma, stress and my deepest darkest demons.

The sad lonely little boy, for the first time in 26 years has discovered he is no longer alone. From the a deepest depth of my soul, thankyou. I love you, a love so unconditionally unexplainable.

The pea to my carrot, forever.