fat men disgust me

I'm 110 pounds, do ballet and have been modelling since I was 14. it feels like I am betraying my own beauty by dating or hooking up with men who are out of shape. initially I was like, "awww, c'mon looks don't always matter", "don't be shallow, it's bad for the soul", "maybe he has a disease that makes him this way, be more empathetic". but then I had sex with a fat guy and the thought of his fat, hairy gut on top of my 23 inch waist still disturbs me to this day. I get physically ill thinking about it. never ever ever again. the whole "women LOVE dad bods" was a psyop designed by americans to try brainwash the rest of the world into thinking that being fat is a normal, attractive thing when it's NOT!!!! I just don't understand how you can walk around with a disgusting beer belly or be like skinny fat and actually date. are you not ashamed?