I don't want to drive

I'm slow, im autistic. I can't fucking deal with it. I can't do it, i cant do it. My dad will keep yelling at me in the car because i cant fucking get it. If im in a car than somebody's family will be ruined because of me. Somebody's gonna die because of me.

I was all clear to take my acne medicine again, one of the side effects is suicidal thoughts. I can't fucking wait. Learning to drive + medicine is a good combo.