Does anyone else engage in "digital self harm?"

I am passing 100% as a woman but instead of this alleviating my dysphoria, I have used this to sneak my way into gender critical groups on Facebook and read all the awful shot they say about people like me. Idk why I do it, it's exhilarating but also very depressing and before Trump was president, I never thought about being trans and now that our issues are all over the news I literally can't turn the dysphoria off :(